My Ramblings

I was talking to a friend of mine recently and we got into a conversation about high school and our dating lives back then. I told him I did not date in high school because I was too afraid of being rejected. I had several crushes on girls that I would’ve liked to date but instead of asking them, I didn’t take any action because if I didn’t ask them, I couldn’t be rejected and suffer the consequent bad feelings about it. I thought because I was fat, the girls were not attracted to me. And there was no way I was going to take a chance on finding out this was true. I did go to the senior prom with a girl (who shall remain nameless to protect her identity) who had not been asked by anyone else to go and so our mutual friends “fixed” us up together for that night.  Because of my eagerness to impress her, I brought her a corsage, a box of candy AND a bottle of perfume when I picked her up in my '66 Chevy Impala SS. Talk about overkill. I think it just made her uncomfortable. This set th

You may never know what others think of you unless they take time to tell you. I recently rediscovered a letter written to me by my friend's wife. In it she told some very nice things she thinks about me. One of her thoughts especially made me feel good. She said I am like the sun whose friends orbit around me. Wow! I surely am unable to think about myself it such terms, but I'll admit I beamed like the sun after reading it. She went on to say I reconnect folks to one another and possess the rare trait of helping others feel loved.  Reading her letter could not have occurred at a better time; I am depressed about my slow recovery and inability to be productive in the way I was in the past, physically. I was feeling unworthy but her loving words caused me to understand that I worth to others emotionally. The moral of this post is that all of us have something to give to others.  Sometimes, we get bogged down in our self-pity and turn inward.  Two questions: what can you